It doesn't interest me what you do for a living I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dreams for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful be realistic to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes."
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
I know somebody will not be very happy with this post (i.e., my financial planner). But what the heck! He's gonna find out sooner or later anyway. Might as well blog about it now.
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So yeah, my computer crashed and I need to have Windows reinstalled. Dell tech support assured me earlier today that there is hope. The hard disk is ok and the files are recoverable. Not all of them though. They can only recover up to 10 Gb of files. I could have bitched and bickered nonstop to force them to back up my whole C:/ partition, but I was just drained of energy after staying on the phone with them for about 3 hours, that I just accepted their offer with a sigh.
Still, I really think I need to get myself a new computer. My Dell is 3 years old already and I'm sure it will crash again in the near future. And next time around, on its 2nd major stroke, I doubt it will still be revive-able.
I was on my way home early this afternoon, and I passed by this little shop in Citygate, when I felt a strong force of energy calling me. It was irresistible. I looked to the direction the energy was coming from and I saw a little green reptile. He was lonely. He stared at me as if saying, "Are you just gonna stand there and ignore my plea for help? Where is your heart?" I was dumbfounded.
This untimely tantrums my Dell is throwing, plus the planned trip I have with friends to Bohol before the next payday, and the many unforeseen expenses this month have all made my March budget really, really tight. But I'm only human. I have a heart and more often than it may seem, my compassion takes over me. Like today. When I saw the green reptile. Maybe I will just scrimp on tuna and rice over the next couple of days. Maybe I will need to re-adjust my social life this month. Maybe I will just ask Dan to extend his graciousness some more so I could use his computer until the next payday, when I have more financial freedom to get myself a new one. Maybe I will just have to press pennies harder over the next 3 weeks. It doesn't matter. I was bent on adopting the reptile to make his life just a tad happier. In my warm apartment, he will have friends who will welcome him with loving arms when I bring him home. So, without thinking twice, I asked the foster home to allow me to bring him home. After about 2 minutes of negotiaitons, I found myself clutching him in my arms.
And look how happy he is in his new home!
The chocolate brown cowhide baby that I adopted in December is now also enjoying her new-found joy. She is French but was born and raised in the UK. They are the newest playmates in my family. Oh! (How could I forget?) And there's also the black little trendy kid from Manila that I adopted from my good friend Jethro. He's a bit shy though. He's still finding his place in the family. In time, I'm sure he'll be ok.
There's just one more kid that's waiting for me to own her from her foster home. Her name is Donna, a big, white girl from New York. Maybe next monthy, Donna.
So, in honor of my ever-growing loving family, here is our family's song...
"...We are a family/ Like a giant tree/ Branching up towards the sky..."
As an 80’s baby, I never really knew what it was like to live in the hippy era; what the revolution was all about; why the Beatles was definitive of their generation; and what profundity was hidden in their songs. Thanks to the wonderful brain of Julie Taymor, the same brain that brought us “Frida” and “The Lion King”, I now understand a little better.
I initially thought the idea behind “Across the Universe” was very simple: pick 30 of out of the many songs of Beatles, make music videos out of them, then conceptualize a storyline that would gel all 30 of them together. That simple. Still, it was a task Herculean for the novice.
One of the things that worked well about the film is how they introduced the central character, Jude and his love interest, Lucy in the first 3 minutes of the film. Instantly, one knew that somewhere in the film, "Hey Jude" and “Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds” would be sung. As these two characters develop along with the others, the audience is left guessing how each character could start a conflict to bring in those songs in the story, until that poignant, tear-jerking moment when "Hey Jude" was actually sung.
Although it felt like the sole purpose of every character and every scene was to propel the story towards the “Hey Jude” moment, it would be unreasonable to say that it was the only song the stood out. The way the upbeat “I Wanna Hold Your Hand” was remade was astonishing. Prudence, the lesbian cheerleader (who later on evolved to be a musician), sang it to her girl friend, to whom her infatuation was never revealed. It was especially biting to hear her sing the line “Please let me be your man.” Then there was the more tragic interpretation of “Let It Be”. Imagine the Detroit race riots --- black men and women, and children, running frantically; gunshots; bomb explosions. The song started a capella as the music bed for that scene, interspersed with the death of Lucy’s boyfriend in Vietnam. The camera panned to reveal that the soulful voice was coming from a black child, distraught and hiding beneath an abandoned car. The song launched to a gospel choir rendition towards the chorus, where the scene also moved from the riot and the Vietnam war to the funeral of the black child that we saw singing a few bars of music earlier, and that of the soldier-boyfriend of Lucy. Another one was “I Am The Walrus”, performed in the film by Bono, in which the film somehow attempted to show the audience the psychedelic mood and the trend of the late 60’s: revolution (sexual, spiritual, socio-political) and drugs (remember that this was the golden age of marijuana and the birth of ecstasy). And of course, the way “While My Guitar Gently Weeps” was used to convey the weeping of the nation when Martin Luther King, Jr. was assassinated in 1968.
The visuals (both animation and cinematography) were a treat. They were at certain points funny, sometimes grotesque, or literal, or symbolic. Other times they were just plain spectacular. “Strawberry Fields” was one of those numbers that combined all those to come out as one rich visual moment. I also think that it was also in this number that the film got its biggest achievement in cinematography. In the first to scenes of Lucy and Jude together, “If I Fell” and “Something”, the colors were very earthy – browns, grays, black and white --- and the lines were clean and sharp. These were the scenes that their love was beginning to blossom: a great contrast with “Strawberry Fields” where the dominant color was red and the visible shapes were those formed by the splatter of paint.
The choreography was fresh, crisp and theatrical. Notable ones were the football from “I Wanna Hold Your Hand”, the preppies from “With A Little Help From My Friends”, the bowling from “I’ve Just Seen A Face”, the street from “Come Together” and the draft office scene “I Want You”. The simplest but most riveting of the choreographies for me though was the brief butto-inspired movement section of the naked Vietnamese ladies floating on the waters. This bit, symbolizing the fatal dangers of vulnerability, came rightfully after the riot scenes in the States and in Vietnam.
“All You Need Is Love”, was very well chosen to be the song to give the audience a sigh of triumph and relief. It spoke of the ultimate reason that that generation fought what they fought for. It spoke of the only thing they had left to fight against war itself. And it spoke of the reason Jude came back to the US after being deported in the middle of the movie. Fine, the scene the song created was quite cheesy and Hollywood-ish. But the characters were quite out-of-the-box in a heroic kind of way that when they fell in the trap, it felt more sincere than tacky. And more than the Jude-Lucy romance sub-plot, the direction succeeded in translating it to a more universal perspective in the time of US anti-war radical uprising.
an excerpt:
Jude: [referring to Lucy] She's probably out fighting for the cause.
JoJo: Looks like you've been fighting for it too, huh
Jude: I don't have one. That's the problem.
A piece of art --any form or genre -- is a masterpiece when it is able to define the times it was produced or the era it represents. It should be able to convey the wants, needs, hunger, desires and battles of its generation. The answer to the question “Who are we as a generation?” should be its message. Utilizing songs that best defined the flower power period, I think “Across the Universe” got its message across.
Main Entry: ne·ga·tion Pronunciation: \ni-ˈgā-shən\ Function: noun Date: 15th century
1 a: the action or logical operation of negating or making negative b: a negative statement, judgment, or doctrine; especially : a logical proposition formed by asserting the falsity of a given proposition — see truth table table
2 a: something that is the absence of something actual : nonentity b: something considered the opposite of something regarded as positive — ne·ga·tion·al \-shnəl, -shə-nəl\ adjective
Basic Example: My brother is not a pig. Not, being the operative word.
Double Negation (a grammatical error): I can't hardly wait. Hardly already denotes not being able to. Not is unnecessary in the statement.
Triple Negation (a telemarketer's error): phone conversation, happened yesterday during siesta Telemarketer: Hi, sir! This is Rowena from Owtel. May I speak with Mr. Ryan? Ryan: (wakes up from his nap) This is he. I'm sorry, whatever it is you're offering, I'm not interested. Telemarketer: Sir, we have a new promo po. This offer... Ryan: Sorry, not really interested. Bye! (hangs up)
Telemarketer: (calls again, about 5 seconds after Ryan ditches her) Sir, how often po kayo tumatawag sa atin sa Pinas? Ryan: Di ako tumatawag. Kaya di ako interesado. Bye! (hangs up)
Telemarketer: (another attempt) Sir, this won't take much of your time. Ryan: (flares up) Anong this won't take much of your time?! You already took 3 minutes of my precious siesta time! Natutulog ako. Kahit ano pa yang promo mo, di ako interesado. Nainitindihan mo yun? Isa pang tawag mo, mumurahin na kita! Telemarketer: Thank you, sir. Bye!
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This winter is considered to be the coldest in 1oo years and had already caused dozens of deaths in Mainland China. It was reported that a few days ago, the thermometer registered 0.9 degrees Celsius in Ngong Ping, the peak of Lantau Island (the island on which I live) --- a tourist spot that boasts of the largest outdoor sitting Buddha; about a 20-minute drive from my place.
Besides the extreme cold, we are also battling with erratic humidity conditions. One minute our noses are bleeding from the unforgiving dryness of the air, the next minute, it's drizzling, foggy and damp. Hello, dry skin!
Winter officially began in November and we've been experiencing the sudden drops and rises in temperature since then. The unbelievable cold started sometime between Christmas and New Year's. It hasn't stopped getting worse even until now. The most disconcerting part according to HK Observatory is, the weather isn't expected to improve over the next few days.
Times like this, I miss home. I miss the Philippines. All of its 7, 107 tropical islands. High tide or low tide.
Life is like a wheel. Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down.
Sometimes you're a top. Sometimes you're a bottom.
But when you're a bottom and you've topping for two whole weeks, it gets annoying. Then you start to ask:
"When will the wheel bring me to the bottom again?"
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About A Boy And A Chinese Acquaintance
at Volume. Eve of the Chinese New Year
Acquaintance: Hey you! Kung hei fat choi!
Boy: Kung hei fat choi to you too!
Acquaintance: I need to ask you something. See, my boyfriend has a friend who likes you. Is it ok if I introduced you two to each other?
Boy: Is he top or bottom?
Acquaintance: (chuckles) Why do you ask that?
Boy: Because I'm sick of bottoms. I despise bottoms. There's only enough room for one bottom in HK, and that space has my name written all over it already.
